It's the first time I've seen the film since I saw it in the cinema close to two years ago. The movie - about Julie Powell, an American government employee who starts a blog about cooking her way through Julia Child's book, Mastering The Art of French Cooking - was rather timely for me back then, as I'd just started Mummy Mayhem. I went with friends, and it was great for them to see how the world of blogging can give a person focus, confidence, support, opportunities, personal drive and allow that person to indulge in a love of writing. At the time, I couldn't stop writing posts in my head, and I was becoming more and more heavily tuned in to the world of blogging.
In the two years since I've started this blog, I've had some wonderful opportunities. For example, I would never have thought (nor expected) back then to be sent so many wonderful products, and have my opinion valued. Or to some day be paid to write. And I most certainly could never have dreamt of the day I would see my name attached as the writer of a magazine article. Nor did I bank on making some wonderful (and eventual real life) connections, and finding a community I felt I belonged to.
For the most part, the blogging world is a very supportive, positive and engaging community. However, in truth, it also has a not so pleasant side. Competitiveness, insecurity, jealousy, snobbery, exclusiveness and plain old nastiness rears it ugly head in this online world at times. Thankfully, this is the exception rather than the rule. But as much as it saddens me to admit it, I think this is because you can't get a bunch of women (mostly, in my blogging world anyway) together without a bit of this stuff to deal with on occasion - in any situation. There are days the blogosphere feels not unlike high school. It's just that the 'students' carry laptops rather than books, and the bullying appears in the form of a very under the radar type blog post or tweet or status update on Facebook. Rather than passing notes, bloggers email, or direct message each other on Twitter, or they
Same dog, different leg, as my father would say. ;)
However, even though I've become increasingly...disappointed, I guess, about this side of the blogging world - and, to be honest, it has probably (over time) partly contributed to my decision to a certain degree - it's not the only reason (not by far) that I have decided to shelve Mummy Mayhem indefinitely.
In fact, there are numerous reasons. All of which have floated around constantly in my head over the past month or so as I have contemplated this decision. I waited to do something until now, because I wanted to be sure.
So now I'm sure.
Julie & Julia made me realise how less enthusiastic I am about blogging these days. To be honest, I just haven't felt the need to blog like I used to in the past. I know those of you who have followed my blog for a while, and have seen me pop up on yours, have already noticed how less present I am in the online world these days. For at least the last few months or so, I've not spent much time on Twitter, and I'm not getting around to reading blog posts nearly as much as I used to. I guess life...that is, the one that exists in the real world...has been keeping me busy (as well as entertained), and more and more I'm drawn to it, rather than the world I've spent the last two years immersing myself in from the comfort of my laptop computer. It feels likes, in the beginning, I needed my blog, but now my blog needs me. I don't mean you need me. My blog does. It feels a little more like work than pleasure these days, and it was never supposed to feel like that.
And so, I'm hanging up my keyboard, so to speak, on my blog for a while...maybe forever...I'm not sure at all at this stage. Perhaps the need to write regularly here will suddenly take hold of me again, but for now, I'm happy to hopefully do a little freelance writing here and there, write in my journal (yes! I've picked one back up that I started a while ago) and to hang out with the four-year-old before he starts school, as well as the rest of my gorgeous family during other times. Perhaps - now hold on to your hats, people - I'll finally find the bottom of that ironing pile I'm always talking about? (I know. How crazy is that concept?)
My apologies to those companies who have contacted me in recent weeks about products and events etc and are still waiting for an answer. Life has been full. And I've been away on holidays. I guess I also knew in my mind this was coming, and didn't want to take anything on.
And to those who have read this blog, who are reading now, and who read right from the beginning (Nomie, Amy, Megan, Thea and my gorgeous friends, Jen and Mardi and Sister C especially)...thank you for your support. Thanks also to Brenda who has done so much for the Australian blogging community, including me.
I won't be gone completely. I think I'll hang around a little on my blog's Facebook page, and on Twitter occasionally to let you know what I'm up to and to say hi. At this stage, I'm planning to update my recipe blog on occasion (quite frankly, it's a handy thing to have access to when we're on holidays and I can't recall a recipe)! And I'll continue to read my fave blogs too so I can keep up with their news. (That is, when I can.)
Thanks for the good times, ya'll. All the best to all the bloggers out there! :)
UPDATE: (17 Nov) I just wanted to say a very sincere thank you to all that have commented here, contacted me via email, Facebook and Twitter to wish me well. It means a lot to me. A. Lot. Thank you so much. xxx